Do For You!

Why resurrect a blog after almost 3 years? Because of the words uttered by my husband that appear as the title of this post....do for you, Kel!

I'll admit.....I've never been good at selfish. Hell, it's probably why becoming a mother was an easy choice for me. I know sacrifice, have had sacrifice most of my life; and am the first person to put myself last. Don't get me wrong; my sacrifice is different that the most alarming visual you can conjur up for the word "sacrifice"; but it's sacrifice, nonetheless. So blog resurrection here we go...because writing has always been "doing for me"

The last few months have been at time of personal struggle for me. By personal struggle, more of a damnit when in the hell am I going to find my freakin' footing. I'm tired of the constant instability. Oh yeah, by the way, I'm fully aware as a full time working mom of 3 that instability is something I should get use to, but hear me out and at this point, "bite me" and let me get to the point :)

I was raised Baptist; and continue to be religious; just Methodist, because, let's face it; they are more forgiving, understanding and accepting.....my cup of tea; but this is not a tirade on faith. I don't question or challenge ANYONE when it comes to that. That is truly a to each their own :) but....anyone who has known me since college is familiar with the following phrase... "I learned guilt in the church" so with a lesson like that, you can see why my footing has a tendency to be a bit wobbly.

So to the meat of the issue; how do I truly do for me anymore or let's be real, start doing for myself for that matter? I concede that I need to make myself "unattached" if you will, but that is truly hard for me. I'm known by my family and friends to be not only available, but a sage; probably the wisest person they know, when it comes to wanting an "in your face, tell it like it is" opinion. To those I truly love, I don't mince words; and expect great things. So, the last few months have been painful for me because I have been everyone's everything; and although I love helping people, it's what I do well, I can't help but feel a little bit like the bitch holding the bag. Now before there are pity comments.....don't go there.....pity and jealousy are 2 emotions that I don't do in my repetoire. They are both empty, hollow and have no worth or positive result.

What I'm looking for.......tips, helpful hints....working moms unite!!! In the midst of working towards a career change, which will inevitable require schooling, trying to lunch and/or volunteer at my 3 children's schools, eating dinner as a family and getting much needed hug & cuddle time in during the evening; what has been helpful for you out there to get in some me time?

Ideally, my me time will consist of running, working on a simple, yet ravishing style, minimal but "holy shitake look at that natural beauty" makeup; and how to really focus my day on the things I need to do without everyone giving me the "holy shit, what the hell's up her ass" look, if I don't have time for them like I use to? Although, I'm quite catty; so I'm sure I could have a comeback or not care attitude; but ah hell, just wasted time :) I'm looking to maximize my time and not waste it anymore.

It should further be noted that I am a lucky, lucky lady!!!! I'm fully aware of that and am grateful EVERYDAY!!! I have the BEST husband in the world. Bar None!!! who is everything a wife could ask for in a perfect husband and father.....so I have his full support for doing for me; hence the title; but I'm the one that needs the push past the guilt. And I have 3 AMAZING kids that are joyful and giddy with every moment I spend with them or hug I provide....so I'm sure at the end of the day, I can make changes that will be unnoticed to them.....it's the getting there that's tough.

Eager, but not desperate :)

Signing off......K2