How Did I Get Here?

OK......how many of you just said "Oh great......Kel's on a bender" she's lost it.....she is forgetting how incredibly lucky she is to be exactly where she is......

Well, well, well....those of you that are my pessimistic friends, probably did think that. But I challenge you to take that title and put an optimistic twist on it; to which it was intended from the start.

My epiphany came as I was vacuuming the bonus room 3 days ago preparing for family to descending upon my home for Christmas.......4 adults; 1 3 year old and a dog to be exact....to add to the 2 adults, 2 children and one dog already in this 3 bedroom home....again, I digress :)

Yes, I uttered those words aloud (I was alone so no one looked at me like I was crazy; like I am quite use to these days; but I did utter them aloud) in the comfort of my bonus room that felt like was growing while I was willing the vacuum to finish faster rather than slower.

Now I am sure that we have all thought this particular phrase on any given day and wonder exactly how we found ourselves in the particular situation in which we were engaged; however, so that you will laugh out loud......I stated these words out loud as I was vacuuming, while wearing the most amazing present I could have asked for from my dear husband (don't go there :).........

Picture this, vacuum in one hand; and a relatively normal looking 35 year old mother of two, rocking out to Christmas tunes in an.........AUTOGRAPHED ERIC STAAL jersey!!!!!!! Give me a big belly laugh now; unless of course, you don't follow hockey; to which you now need to google who the hell Eric Staal is?

So, quite simply, I was taking a moment the day after Christmas to ask myself "exactly how did I get here in an autographed hockey jersey vacuuming....because, let's be honest......we were are dreaming as little girls of our fairy tale lives in the future, it doesn't involve a vacuum, oversized athletic apparel or a bonus room for that matter :) Well quite simply, the answer is I got here by divine intervention, chance and a little choice :)

I have recently found myself in the throes of Facebook; where I have rekindled some of the best friendships I had what now seem a lifetime ago......and in rekindling these relationships I am finding there are those that have found love, success and happiness; and those that have experienced sadness, sorrow and uncertainty about where their lives are going to take them next. So, here is hopefully what those of you will get from reading this........think about how exactly did you get where you are today; and don't focus on what you didn't do or act on 15 years ago or even 15 days ago; but focus on what you are going to do tomorrow to either continue enjoying what you have today or change your course for the future.


As I was surrounded on Christmas morning by 2 loving daughters and the most amazing man in the world (not just because he gave me a hockey jersey; but again.....I digress, because he knew me well enough to know that I would love it; and wasn't embarrassed when I wore it nonstop for the next 3 days; did I mention I was wearing it now? ;)

at any rate......back to Christmas morning; I realized as I looked at my family; that I, too; had times in my life when I wished I would have done things differently; or made different choices; or acted on impulse.......but that I haven't been in that place in a very long time and I laughed and smiled.

As you can tell, my Christmas was an amazing one; one of the best ones I can ever remember; because I was reminded again that I was exactly where I am suppose to be and it was based on divine will and all of the muddled, I'm not sure I am doing the right thing; or why the hell did I do that choices I had made in my life.......ah, validation :) that I quickly passed on to my dear Blair when I told him that night that I was so glad I had messed up so many decisions along the way; and would gladly do it again knowing that it was leading me to where I am today.

Here's hoping to all of you that 2009 is better than 2008; and here's to regretting past choices or lost opportunities that now seem like missed dreams....they aren't :) Just find your comfortable hockey jersey "this is where I was meant to be" vacuum moment today and run with; you won't regret it!


Signing off!

K2